Talents

I have many of what I call sub-talents being able to design and make all sorts of things. But I find that my main talent is very much covered over. The feeling is that of being buried alive which feels very uncomfortable and underpins my life with desperation. It seems strange that partial expressions of my main talent can bring me a form of happiness and even contentment but at the same time feelings of powerlessness. I have a sense that if I can connect fully with my main talent then I would feel and fully experience real joy.

I have conditioning and also conscious and unconscious beliefs that tell me that I cannot fully express my main talent because I am not good enough, able, or allowed to do so. But all this speaks a lie about me, because I now realize that my main talent is being and expressing unconditional love. This type of love is really the main essential creative power in the universe. It's the raw power within all energy. Of course it is possible to create many different variations of matter both good and bad from this energy. I now see how I have reinforced and almost become the lie, or the opposite of my true nature.

The opportunity to me seems to be in developing the life skill of bringing unconditional love, which is really my main talent (who I really am) to all the conditioning and mind led beliefs of my life. It's also bringing unconditional love to all the circumstances, situations and relationships in my life. I realize it is a very tall order and extremely challenging to bring the skill of being unconditionally loving to all of life. But as I slowly start developing it, I find the life observer part of me really sees the bigger picture of reality, and I see and feel the feelings of appreciation and gratitude that accompany this expanded perspective. Increased perception brings on a joy and peace that could be described as 'unworldly'. This I now know is the connection to my soul which is of course not of this world.

However, it really is incredible the sense of peace I can feel in my mind and body that comes with "mind - body - soul" balance. I literally rise and shine. Lightness, joy and ease become the backdrop to my life. From this perspective life on earth really does become an incredible adventure of co-creation between the divine and the divinity within me.